Challenge Yourself

Weird Dream

I was very lucid about where I was. It was in the past in the year 2001 and I knew I was in the past like I realized that I was in a year that I'm not supposed to be in and that I'm from the year 2023 and I knew that unfortunately my mom was deceased and so is my dad like this really got me fucked up people I don't know what this was about I even noticed elements of my old room on Somerset where how I had them in 2001 even things that I forgot about years ago like the clothing that I had like things that I've lost through the years like pants and shorts and shirts and jewelry that were stolen from me really when I went to jail and they disappeared and I remember them even now like huh? I was trying to tell my mom that I'm not from this year and Everything that I done in my life through experience like the overdoses the bad choices with women the ignorance I showed when I was younger the bad choices I wanted to make right because I had them experiences but it was 2001 I don't get it. I know it's just a dream but how did I know all this?

ACCEPTANCE

is the answer to everyone of my problems. When I am disturbed, it's because I find some person, place, thing or situation - some fact of my life unacceptable to me an I can find NO peace until I accept that things happen the way they are designed to happen in whatever moment no matter how I was t them to go. Nothing, absolutely NOTHING happens in this existence by mistake. I accept life on its terms not mine. When I tried to control everything I found NO happiness and since I have accepted things are the way they are life has been a lot easier and I am grateful and humble by life. I no longer concentrate on what needs to be changed in the world to accommodate me, I understand the only thing I can control is my behaviors, my attitude, my out look on things. Though this life of mine has cause me great pain, half due to my own ignorance, I am blessed to have gone through what I have gone through. I take my mistakes, analyze them, figure what I did wrong and correct it so it never happens again. 

Hi

Storm

Life is a storm, you bask in the sunlight one moment, shattered upon the rocks the next, and even though things are shining bright and I am happy with what I have achieved thus far the storm of darkness is raging inside me but I will NOT and CANNOT allow that darkness to cast its shadow over me for long.

Freedom Cakes Speical Luna Cafè

Damn I miss the kitchen. I enjoy demo but gotta get back in the business. I have my culinary arts degree and servsafe so fuck it

DMD

DMD and gUiLTy·bY·DeSiGn iNc.™ in the ASYLUM for the beautifully illuminated dOnNoMeNaL mind proudly present; PURE chaos that is crammed into a certifiable giggle, "Beautifully soulless catastrophic waves of distant memories and exquisite illusions that masquerade in a forgotten past that never existed. 

H.O.W

Honesty 

Openness 

Willingness

Chaos Crammed Into A Certifiable Giggle

Running through my mind are beautiful blissful catastrophic waves of distant memories and exquisite illusions that masquerade in a forgotten past that never existed.

Paint Boredom

Yeah..

 I haven’t updated this thing in over 6 months. Forgot I actually had it TBH. Things are what they are with me. 424 days clean and sober. Still cooking at the Cafe. Buried my best friend Monday. But I’m good. Things been solid and I am just trying to be the best dad I can be to my daughters and my son. Too old to live for hate or regret. 

Work Station 🚉 2

 Top is chicken 🐔 gravy (I make in house), left is quinoa and next to it is black beans. The gravy is mainly used for chicken 🍗 and pancakes 🥞 and the quinoa (which I make from scratch) and black beans are for breakfast bowls 🍚 with pico 🍅 🧅 and shredded cheddar 🧀 topped with an over easy egg 🍳 and cilantro aioli.

Work Station 🚉

Top left sliced tomatoes 🍅 and below it is avocado 🥑 used for avocado toast 🍞. Then you have strawberries 🍓 and blueberries 🫐 for the fucking smoothies the turkey 🦃 and chicken 🐓 salad which is used for turkey 🦃 clubs and the chicken 🍗 salad is for sandwich’s or stuffed chicken avocado 🥑 then you have spinach (yuck) baby arugula, and spring mix used for BLT’s 🥪 and other shit!

Breads @ Work

Left we have Plain Bagels, next to.it Everything Bagels, Philly Muffins, Sour Dough and Brioche.

Selling My Vape

Selling this digital vape 💨 . Only had for about 3 weeks and I rarely use it. I am quitting 🛑 smoking 🚬 AND vaping all together! I spent $50 for the vape, $25 for the juice and the battery was $10. I am asking for $40. As you see it comes with the charger 🔌, the box 📦 , brand new coil, two different tips, owners manual and I’ll throw in the juice 🧃 which is as you see strawberry 🍓 Pom 50mg. HMU ASAP!!

 

Been A minute

 Been so busy with work and school haven’t had time to update this site so here is an update. Line cooking again and going to Drex in July!! #iamagod #fuckLBHalfJMLandthephadelphiacourts

Me Happy!

 

Never Give In, Never Give Up

 

My Work Ethic is FAR Superior Than 99.9% Of Humanity!

 

6 MONTHS CLEAN AND SOBER BITCH ASS WIGGERS!

Damn! 6 months free of drugs! No coke, no heroin going through my veins! I’ve come a LONG way and I have a major amount of self pride. Working again as a line cook, attending zoom meetings everyday and working a program that best suits me. I live by the moment cause idk wtf will happen 24 seconds from now let alone 24 hours. I am in a recovery house setting called Gaudenzia Re-Entry and am the senior coordinator and I am HAPPY! We as addicts are the most talented people in the universe and deserve all the happiness cause we crawled thru a river of shit and DESERVE to come out clean on the other end! 

愛する to you all!

The NEW DMD