Mom

• 7 years ago, December 31, 2010 my heart 💔 was crushed and my 🌎 world flipped upside down and all around. It was the day that I started my decent into 🙅 not caring weather I lived or died because it was the day that the matriarch, the ✊ rock, the glue of my 👪 family, my mommy MaryAnn Josephine DiGiacomo was taken. For the longest time I was bitter. My mommy only knew me as the wanna be gangster I portrayed. The lazy bum, loser 👎 who expected everything to be handed to him due to a misplaced sense of entitlement. She didn't witness me go to college, work and become a man. My heart ❤️ has yet to heal and probably never will. I miss my mom so much. I never would have been homeless at a few points in my life. I seriously doubt I would have went to multiple rehabs and would not have had 5 stints in a psych hospital (where I met female mistakes!) I miss her so much. The old adage of: You never know how much they mean till they are gone. Truer words have never been written! 

🇮🇹 Late Night Creativity 🇮🇹

Reality is that..

I don't really see me making it to 36 in April, which is four months away. I just really don't care anymore. I rather go out like I thought I would when I was younger and fantasied about. A hail of gun fire, a shoot out with the police. Nothing to really live for  anymore. Trey iX № 4 mE!

Observation

Video 📹 killed the radio 📻 star and reality killed the video 📼 star.

For What It It Is Worth

Lot of thinking lately and I am looking at past relationships and do realize where I was wrong. Why I ended up in jail and what led to it.  I don't hold any grudges and though a part of me would like to tell this person I am sorry (cant due to legal reasons) for what it is worth, what I did to hurt said person, I truly am sorry. At the time we met I was in a bad place and we rushed. I will let it be. Only writing this out to get it out of me. Amore Sempri.

What I do!

Choice.