🇷🇺 DMD‘a Asylum For My Chaotic Mind 🇮🇹: December 2011

Saturday, December 31, 2011

What an unbelievably hard and surreal year it has been for one DMD. Started off on the absolute worse of circumstances when on December 31, 2010 my mother was taken away when she died in her sleep. It has left a gaping hole in my heart that can and never will be filled. That blow was soon accompanied by my father being arrested literally 2 weeks after and sentenced to 2 years in prison upstate. Which subsequently broke my immediate family apart after a short but morbid reconciliation due to a bunch of BS. Then yet another situation is presented when my eldest sister is diagnosed with breast cancer a week after my father is arrested. Then comes the beginning of February, historically a shitty month for me over the last 6 to 7 years where I been shot, stabbed and vilified what happens now I’m arrested and within 2 weeks am extradited to Florida where I am to spend a little less then 2 months in. Only good thing that came out of that whole bullshit is that I got to spend a night with my pop in CFCF before he was shipped upstate and I was bounced around between HOC, DC back to HOC then to PICC then to Florida on a 3 day transport in the back off a Florida Marshall’s vehicle handcuffed where I couldn’t get a wink of sleep, with 9 other people on a thing that is only really designed for say 6 people oh and the vehicle almost crashed twice, we got pulled over twice and one of the inmates died during transport and I had to answer questions in some backwards ass hick town in the south where the jails cells look like something out of a cheesy ass wannabe crime flick. Only thing that went in my favor was the fact I did get out when I thought I was completely fucked for at least 5years but of course being the theme of 2011 nothing comes easy, had to walk 22 miles in the Florida Sun in order to catch a bus to come home, which I almost missed. & this is only the first 4 months of the year. What else has this year brought? Oh yeah sister was in a car accident that affected her short term memory, my niece went missing for a bit freaking us all out, lost a job (both due to my own stupidity) for 4 and a half months ate nothing but oat meal, ramien noodle soups and drank water (like I was earlier in the year when I was in jail) cause the insurance companies were jerking and still pretty much are jerking us off about the 401K and life insurance. Couldn’t find a job due to the economy and the second depression (not recession) but at least we have the retirement fund (which that was a mission in obtaining) or we be fucked and I was on the brink of doing dirt again, hardcore, I don’t care if I go to jail for the rest of my life dirt. Been secluded (self imposed) so as far as 2011 goes go fuck yourself! Never again please no one deserves the shit I and my family had to deal with this year.

FOR U MOMMY

Thursday, December 22, 2011

11/22/11

Went to see my mom's grave yesterday and I broke down. It has almost been a full year and it's hard without you here being that this is your favorite time and I still am in shock that my mommy is gone. I LOVE YOU so much and miss you.

Tuesday, December 20, 2011

The Agreement

Remembering........

I was just thinking bout my mom and what I use to do when I was younger around XMas and figured I'd share....I use to always ask for like 3-4 new video games for XMas every year and I remember always un-wrapping one of my games before XMas, package still intact and take an old game of mine and put it in it's place so it still looked like I got 3-4 new games....it got harder to do when I start asking for DVD's though lol...how I miss them days....mom I love and miss you so much!

Friday, December 09, 2011

SANTA.....

Dear Santa,

I just wanted to let you know that this year I have been and will continue to be EXtremely naughty, I have been more naughty this year then any other year you fat judgmental prick.

Sincerely,