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Nihilism

Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated. It is often associated with extreme pessimism and a radical skepticism that condemns existence. A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.

Broke My Own Heart

I figured things would be different this time around since we're older, more seasoned, I figured, hey why not. That was my mistake Jessica. 

On This Day

Former president and presidential running Donald Trump was almost assassinated in Butler, Pennsylvania. Where was I? Laying in my bed watching Ugly Americans and getting my penis stroked. HAHA

Laziness vs. Depression

Laziness, lack of motivation, and depression are all completely different from one another, but often look quite the same.

1. LAZINESS:

Being lazy has an intention. It’s a preference. You want and enjoy doing absolutely nothing. And that’s not necessarily a bad thing. Sometimes you just need a lazy day in order to relax. However, when it comes to daily tasks, laziness begins to have a different impact. You have desire, but aren’t willing to put the effort in. 

If you’re unable to do nothing, you often find the quickest way to do things. 

• You don’t mind poorly executed work as long as it’s finished. 

• You would rather have someone else do the work.

• You enjoy and prefer doing unproductive tasks. 

• You are a master at procrastination. 

• You do what you want instead of what is actually required.

2. LACK OF MOTIVATION:

Lack of motivation is essentially lack of passion. There are no goals, desire, or willingness to work. You simply don’t do anything, there is no faking it like laziness does. Lack of motivation is usually a deeper psychological problem and could have some elements of depression. 

Your lack of motivation is a reaction to your current situation. It can be triggered by being picked on, put down, lack of clear direction, not living up to expectations, or always being told what to do. In time, this leads to losing any passion you might have had previously. 

• You enjoy progression, but just aren’t feeling it at the moment.

• You dislike things that aren’t beneficial. 

• You are a perfectionist, which can lead to procrastinating. 

• You procrastinate because you have no interest in the project.

• You are unproductive in order to escape, not for enjoyment. 

• You are hardworking when you are motivated. 

3. DEPRESSION:

Depression is a serious mental illness that doesn’t go away after a few days or weeks. Someone who suffers from depression doesn’t want to feel that way, but it is out of their control. There is simply no feelings of desire or hope. They’ve lost all concept of meaning in their life, of time, of responsibilities. It just doesn’t matter. 

If you are experiencing a combination of these symptoms you should seek help right away. If you or anyone you know is thinking about suicide or has a plan to carry out suicide, please call the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline.

• You have lost interest in daily life to the point of feeling emotionally empty. 

• You feel irritable and restless; your tolerance levels have decreased.

• You feel sluggish or drained and need to take plenty of breaks.

• You have difficulty concentrating and making decisions.

• You either have no appetite or overeat, which can cause weight fluctuations.

• You have little to no care for personal hygiene or keeping your space clean.

• You engage in escapist behavior such as substance abuse, overspending, or other dangerous activities.

College Return

Well at least this shit is done. I so want another degree. I already have two associates degrees, one in technology and education from CCP, and the other was in specialized technology and computer programming from ITT Tech, I also have a culinary arts degree and am servesafe certified and even though I love computers and know my way around any electronic and can literally build a computer from scratch, hardware and software because I have done it more than once and I absolutely love cooking and enjoy the chaos and hustle of the kitchen especially during them high peak hours when you're rushing around on the line to get tickets out in a reasonable time, it's enjoyable to me because I thrive in chaos I'm actually going to go for a third associates in a field that I know, and have been told that I would be perfect for and would extremely excel in and that field is that of a drug and alcohol counselor. I grew up around it my whole life and eventually succumbed and eventually became an addict and LUCKILY survived. So why not help those who face the epidemic of addiction. I've never felt so strongly about a choice as I do this. With my experience and with my INTERESTING history, and what I've overcome I'd do a lot of great.

Nihilism

Nihilism is the belief that all values are baseless and that nothing can be known or communicated. It is often associated with extreme pessimism and a radical skepticism that condemns existence. A true nihilist would believe in nothing, have no loyalties, and no purpose other than, perhaps, an impulse to destroy.