Success

 Real success in "life" is NOT measured by how much you accomplish, but by HOW you accomplish it.

It’s Time

The NEED to FREE myself, be PATIENT, EASE my mind, NOT be a dilemma, SURVIVE, LET GO of that of which does not help, be OPTIMISTIC, TRY and make the right HEALTHY choices, make an EFFORT, and OPEN myself up more.

No One Else!

I won't know who I am unless I do things that are right for ME. Today, I'll answer to MYSELF, NOT to others! - 🇷🇺 Donny Malkavian DiGiacomo 🇮🇹

The Masquerade

Real terror is not the sight of death it is the fear of death. What is the fear of death? Death is the ultimate dilema and integral to the beliefs and behaviors of every culture. Life is bore on the corpses of the dead. Without death there would be no motivation to accomplish anything. The only emotion would be existing. Life would be pestilant & agonizing. (Toreador)

Perception once shapes the mind & rules over time. Time however erodes perception & then in turns warps the mind. The mind capricious, having various effects on perception, time & the mind it's self..... with harmony progress is made. (Malk)

The moon is a mysterious mistress.... who walks the night with demons of dread.

Chaos, like the mind, can be understood only thru practice. Order, however is only as good as perception thereof. Time is key that links the two & bears witness their ebb & flow.

Each minor problem like a grain of sand... each night I inherit the desert.

Funny

Melanie and LBH! 

Two MAJOR bad decisions on my end!

Something MORE than EVERYTHING!

No one who comes to this point still has hope, some lingering illusion, or some dream that there is SOMETHING outside of themselves that will bring happiness and peace to them. If everything is in them this cannot be so. And therefore by their coming, they see the TRUTH about themselves, and seeks for SOMETHING MORE THAN EVERYTHING, as if a part of it is not. This is the purpose they bestow upon the body; that it seek for what they lack, and give them what would make them COMPLETE. And thus they wonder aimlessly about, in search of something they CANNOT find, believing that they ARE what they are NOT. 

🇷🇺 Donny Malkavian DiGiacomo 🇮🇹 

Grief

For a long time I held my grief in and I LET it consume me. What it led to was anger and that led to was a SEVERE coke habit then to a needle in my arm and a fucking heroin addiction then a fatenyol addiction. After what I grew up around and saw as a young buck in Kensington I STILL did it. I NEVER told anybody this but I am in recovery and it's an honest program and recently I wrote a 2 page letter to my grief that was LITERALLY 10 years in the making and after doing it and sharing it I felt the world was off

What I am saying is PLEASE don't keep grief, anger, rage, depression inside it'll destroy you as it did to me. I ended up homeless, broke both financially and spiritually and it took 7 rehabs and TEN YEARS for me to learn that grief was my trigger. Now I am in the process of putting shit together. I was coddled as a kid, teenager, and as an adult. I didn't start working till I was 29! It's sad but it's my story and hopefully someone can learn from my fuckups. I'm 38 and FINALLY growing up. Stay safe people and may the Lord's grace bless you always.

Dream

 Even though I have an associates degree in computer programming and specialized technology and did go through a semester @ Drexel chasing a bachelor’s degree in the same field, I really think, and it might sound corny but the opinions of the mass matter naught to me, I am GOING to chase my dream of becoming an interior decorator. Seriously I 💕 LOVE 💕 art, and have IMPECCABLE taste and I can hook up a spot that doesn’t look crowed and is pretty sweet. Time to stop dreaming dreams and start chasing them! Been looking @ schools. I want my OWN business. I want to make my mom above all and me family PROUD. 

💞 Amore 💕

It’s Been A LONG time.

Been a bit since I wrote on this blog BUT I’m am going to TRY to say up on it unlike years past when I was in a haze.

FUCK the past! It’s over with, I CANNOT change it no matter how hard I wish. I’ve done is what I’ve done. ALL I  can do is learn from it and move on. STOP harping and living for what was and start living for what IS.

I live for the moment, moment to moment, ALWAYS have and ALWAYS will until the day my Lord and savior, GOD, closes my eyes for the next consciousness.

BTW Melanie the way I treated you I do regret. All you ever did was try and help me and I had the hit and split mentality BUT you ended up pregnant. Always be a connection with us.

38 Birthday 🎉

 

Graffiti City 215

Spring Garden Street 1923

I love looking at old pictures of the city. It amazes me. This is right when the city was clearing out this neighborhood to run straight to the river. 

Why?

Like really!

A meno di un anno di distanza!

Quando quel pezzo di carta scadrà 4/9/20, ti ricambierò per quello che mi hai fatto. Non dimentico.

37th Birthday 🎂

Also saying goodbye to a non healthy crush I know would NEVER happen and though I WILL change my fantasy it kinda sucks but good bye GJD aka LM.

DiGiacomo

#Truth about 💑

👱🏻 Guys fall in ❤️ love ❤️ through their 👀's. Women 💁🏻 fall in 💖 love 💖 through their👂🏻's!!

Perfectly Damaged

Bleed Philly

Still Single

Last WHORE I actually fucked with on a semi-serious relationship had me booked cause she was a nut. On a side note 4/9/20 is coming up soon. Birthday as well as sweetness.