The Lord WILL Guide Me!

 

Silence...I Kill You

 

Once And For All

 IF I wanted revenge on the person who took my freedom and put me in jail on a SLEW of lies I would have already. Years ago. In the past I would have struck at the individual they are with to hurt them not physically but deep emotionally, it be an easier target cause they wouldn’t know why. Random act of violence BUT just writing that is beyond me. I am FAR better than that. I actually grew after 37 years. I have kids that need a father NOT a felon. I father figure not a junkie.

 I forgave this person a long time ago, I do NOT blame this person for what they did, I was not in the best place in my life at that time and had a heroin addiction BUT that does not redeem me from the bullshit I did put this person through. I did use this individual for a place to stay, a wheel, money and an easy shot of pussy. TBH the head game was good but not the way this person put it out to be. 

 I am so sorry and I make all amends to this person. I TRULY wish nothing but happiness, joy and peace to them. I hope this person finds the joy of being a parent. I am about to have yet another child, my boy who is due July 25,2021. 

 As I write this I have 124 days clean with 124,000 more to go. 

🇮🇹 Sempre Amore 🇮🇹

For ME NOT For Others

 

Calabrese and Nebaladon

 

Eagles 🦅 FOR LIFE!

 

4 Momths and Counting

 

Dicks, Pussies and Assholes

 

My KG-9

 

Team America World Police

 

Simple Wants

 

48 Laws Of Power

 

Can and Cannot Change

 

Closed

 

Miss This Dog

I can blame LBH for this and that but what hurt most was not her FALELY saying I was going to harm her (Friends Hospital hookup, oops!) it was her saying I would harm Pickles. Never would hurt this dog EVER. All things aside I forgive LBH for costing me my freedom because I did drive her to an extreme and for that I am sorry. I TRULY hope she has found love, peace and contentment, she deserves it, so do I and I have. Have another child on the way with Melanie who was ANOTHER Friends Hospital hookup (oops I did it again). Though she will be yet another babies momma my interest belongs to an old crush from GRADE school, Nikki Sanchez. You WILL be mine eventually. I get what I want when I want it and how I want it. 

🇮🇹 Sempre 🇮🇹

Bye Bye Wentz

Reason he got traded is cause he CANNOT escape the pocket, holds onto the ball to long and had only ONE good season, the other were subpar at best!

DJ DMD

 

Pure Awareness

In my notebooks my writings are the ONLY place I can be COMPLETELY open. The pen and paper have no judgement, no vote, it simply receives my truth and allows me to turn the page. 

I have TREMENDOUS amounts of remorse for the violence I caused, both planned and spontaneous, but I think what brings me the most sorrow is that I’ve learned to justify this behavior. I ALWAYS find a reason, a cause, the need to stuff this savage behavior into a compartment I can ALWAYS use. 

With this awareness comes days sometimes weeks where I have to avoid looking into a mirror, my self hate is so deep, so palpable I fear I’ll lunge at my own image. Shatter the glass and cut myself with shards of broken reflection. 

Absolution.

 

Live For The Moment

 

The Many Face GOD!